Friday, January 30, 2009

Time To Reflect

I have been back from Chicago for a little under a week. That is more than enough time for me to reflect on why I went up North. I have realized so much about my life and life in general. I want to share this with you.

I learned a lot about my Nana, and about the type of person she was and still is in the hearts of her family. I want my children and my family to say the types of things that were said at her memorial. I am so sorry that I wasn't able to be as close to her living wise to see her on a more regular basis because my cousins who were spoke so many heartfelt things about her that I was sad I lost that connection with her.

I realized that life is precious, I knew that before but it just hit me. You need to live and not just exsist. By that I mean I have taken a really good look at my own life, and in doing so realize that I have given up on or passed up on some great things. Maybe it is my mid-life crisis, or I should say wake up call, but I miss family. I do have my family here that consists of my mother, 2 sisters and brother but I miss the bigger family I had growing up.

I was thrilled that I got to see my cousins, I got to know one a lot better than before, laughed with the rest and had our fun while remembering my Nana. She would have been so proud of us all.

I realized I missed my Dad and my Step-Mom alot more than I allowed myself to think about. Seeing them just drew it out more. I learned that my awesome family can put away some wine!!! And I learned that I loved trying a new beer. I can now say I went up North and had a Fat Squirrel (and now want more)!

I realized or learned so much on this trip. The circumstance was sad but the outcome was wonderful. An eye opener on how I need to make changes to some things and make them better and above all live.

34 comments:

Wendy said...

Glad you're home safely. And that the trip went so well.

Isn't it sad that funerals bring us together more than anything else? I'm working on not letting this be the case, too.

Ed said...

That is sweet of you, Jen. I've always been proud of you and your family.

LittlePeopleWealth said...

Funerals are always a sad time, but they definitely bring you closer to yourself and your family.

Keep It Classy, Jen said...

You did learn a lot and as unfortunate as the circumstances were that led you there it was for a greater purpose!

Emily Retherford said...

Wow- you sure learned a lot for one trip! Sorry for your loss, a funeral isn't exactly a fun place to visit your family, but you learned a lot about them and yourself.

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Dazediva said...

Hey Jennifer,
It's the first time I'm passing through your blog and just wanted to say a few words to you.

I'm sorry for the loss of your Nana. She sounds like an amazing woman and a very cool grandma / great grandma !

I lost my grandmother at the end of January too .. and it's ironic how funerals bring a new sort of closeness amongst family members. I got to experience that first hand as well.

I hope you are doing well; and that you will continue writing new posts. Will check out your product review blog Dirty Shirt too :)

Keep It Classy, Jen said...

Sorry to hear about your Nana but I am glad you had the opportunity to spend time with your family.

SweetWICK said...

This blog looks great!

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